My Journey so Far

I suppose at this stage I should tell you all a bit about my journey so far. 25 or 30 years ago I was a lot less confident and a lot more anxious to fit in with what I thought was normal. I didn’t like being ‘normal’ but was afraid not to be. I suppose I felt people would talk about me or worse laugh at me and at the time I was living more through what other people thought. I was living from the outside in. I was totally controlled by external factors. I spent my life reacting to things that I had no control over. I let things control me. After being dealt a couple of harsh blows by life I, first of all, lost too much weight and then put on way too much weight. I came to a point in my life where shoes were the only things I could buy that would fit me. That’s where the obsession with shoes began.

Then many many moons ago my best friend bought me a pair of Irregular Choice shoes

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And so began the obsession. It was slow at the start. I loved the shoes but I would not have worn them so it was a pair now and again. I always felt great when I was wearing them. I didn’t have any really irregular ones just the more mainstream versions. As the years went on I began wearing less regular shoes to work - I am a teacher in a primary school. I started with flat Dogo shoes. I then bought some hand painted or custom made shoes. My Christmas collection of custom shoes is particularly good. But then about 2 and a half or 3 years ago I rediscovered my passion for Irregular Choice. Now I wear Irregular Choice almost every day. I wear all of them to school from the more regular to the absolutely irregular. I’m slower to wear the more irregular ones out when it’s not to school and that’s what I’m working on at the minute. I did push the boundaries of my comfort zone completely last Christmas and wore Mr and Mrs Clause high heels even though they light up. The shoes were the first step for me on an ongoing journey to being happy being me. They are what keeps me on track on days where I’m doubting. They remind me to be positive and to get rid of all negative thoughts. They remind me to push outside my comfort zone. When I do meet people who point and laugh (doesn’t happen often) it helps me work on my resilience. Through the next few posts I’d like to share more of my journey with you and how my irregular shoes support me as I go. (And I’ve shared a little Christmas in July)